simplicity-all i ever want.

8:39 PM

ah, 1st june, at night. dinner and dance at RMUN 2007. Hermione met Ron. BWAHAHAHAHAA. (i swear i look SO bad. somehow that didn't stop people from making me dance with andrew from ACS(B) to My Humps. Heh.)

okay, so maybe the aviators was taking it a little too seriously. but i had to do smth up the ugliness of my shirt!

heh, hope life's good for everyone:D

-roshni/ron

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8:50 PM

HEY EVERYONE!

school's started again, and it means life shall be hellish once again. fun hell, but that's an oxymoron, so yeah. either way, i wasn't feeling too happy a few days ago, and that turned into a song. so erm, here goes. it's highly angsty, and well, just downright negative, but either way, it's a song. still trying to work out chords for it ( I HAVE A GUITARRRRRRR. my sis is in guitar ensemble in RJC, so well, she got one. and i can also use it:) and we learnt guitar last year. i sadly only got a B. i screwed up my chords. oh well. ) so yes.

it's really a song. i write a lot of things, as you guys have probably realised.

here goes.

Lost.

am I lost forever
am I just trying to breath
eam I going to
sink or swim

troubles of the world on my shoulders
angers
of others thrown at me
hatred felt by so many
dumped in my
face
emotions left unedited for me to see

when I feel the
world’s against me
and the wind blows the wrong way
words better left
unsaid come out
its when I start to wonder

am I lost
forever
am I just trying to breathe
am I going to
sink or
swim

waves of feelings erupting in my stomach
head echoes with
the words that stab so deep
when things start spinning out of control
and
the lines fade away
the blood that spills can’t be stopped

when
the colours blend together to one
everything turns translucent
hands left
grasping at thin air
and then I start my fall

am I lost
forever
am I just trying to breathe
am I going to
sink or
swim

when I’m stuck in this pit
walls all around me
someone
like you comes along
you stand above me
trying to get me out
but then I
realise I’ve been
thrown both ends of the rope

am I lost
am I
lost forever
am I just trying to breathe
am I going to
sink or
swim

am I lost
am I lost
someone tell me how to get out of
here

so now i used the side thing to make it look slightly different from the rest o fthe entry and now it got stuck. oh well. anyway, hope you guys have a good time in sec three, it's obviously hell, but i mean with camp and stuff, it'll have enough good bits too. don't give in to pressure, don't screw your selves up, stay clear of trouble, and spread the love. when you love people and everything including annoying teachers and lessons on Golgi Body, it'll love you in turn.
love makes the world go right. and when things go right, you'll smile. otherwise you'll end up like me wasting away your free time writing angsty things like that:)
that said, i'm actually proud of the song.
whee.
i <3>
LOTS AND LOTS OF 6B LOVE,
ronald.

PS: i dunno if you remember, but kiranjeet from MCS, erm, she was 2 years our junior, so P4 when we were in P6, she was headprefect of her batch, and she's now in cedar! isn't that cool? and she remembers mua! ah...mcs.

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2:21 PM

hey everyone! happy holidays! i guess everyone's hols have begun, and i hope you enjoy it how much you want to:)

anyway, i'm updating here coz...

CHAPTER FIVE OF BYGONE DAYS AT HOGWARTS has been done and updated:)

please see it here.

http://museofawriter.livejournal.com

it's rather long, took me eons to update, i know, but it would be nice if you read and comment, since comments make me feel warm and fuzzy.

and if you haven't read the previous chapters, they're also at the same site, but just go down, look for chapter one, then two three four, four.point.five and five:)

also, considering you guys weren't so apprehensive of my slash writing, if you would like to make me feel even more warm and fuzzy, check this out: http://imprinted-soul.livejournal.com/31819.html#cutid1

it's a drabble or ficlet, it's remus/sirius, and it's something different, it's like in poem form...so it isn't long chunky paragraphs. so it's EASY TO READ.

so if you want to waste some time, go on, read my fics, support your friends who write their own fanfiction:P you may never know...i may write a book one day and become famous and i'll go "of course, my friends, from my primary school, the best friends i ever had, kept me going, writing, as their comments made me feel warm and fuzzy"

i'm just losing it. haha, i blame the heat.

<3 ronald weasley AKA ochie AKA roshni AKA come on, what else do you need?

PS: remember, warm and fuzzzzzy!

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5:17 PM

Okay, so they let me in after eons.. I am grateful..

I don't really know whether I should tell you people this or not but.. yeah.. okay..

I'm really depressed..

Really really depressed..

So, Auntie Annies, read this and tell me your honest opinion..

Oh, and if Sprout is reading this, I'd like to wish her a Happy Birthday or a Happy Belated Birthday or a Happy Early Birthday. Choose.

Well, you people might / might not have remembered that I'm gonna have a birthday, which is right after DUMB's one. And I kinda don't want it to come..

Oh yeah, DUMB -- HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!

Not that I know that I'm going to die on that day or what, but it because my clique's been pressurizing me a lot to tell them what I want..

And even I tell them that I hell don't want anything, and that to donate everything to charity, I doubt they'll listen.

You see, I've been really upset when I heard that in third world countries, babies actually die in every 8 seconds because they've been bloated and all it takes to cure this is a simple cheap exotic kind of salt..

And they are wiped off from Planet Earth just because they can't afford it, and I just feel really upset cos I've like.. lived on this surface for 13 [coming 14] years and these kids just live for.. what.. a few days? A few hours? Minutes? Seconds?

But I don't even think my clique understands my frustration and they think I'm.. I dunno.. trying to make things difficult for them..

And even though they are my clique members, I don't.. okay, not that I don't trust them, but I don't confide in them..

I mean, for goodness sake, they've only known me for a year and a few months while HFC people has already known me for.. what.. 4 or 6 years..? And I don't think they understand me alot still..

And I feel kinda.. depressed when I even think how these people will feel.

I feel kinda sick thinking about it.. But what do you people think I should do?

Paste a smile on my face and nod like a dummy everytime my clique asks me what I want for my birthday and tell them like.. I want a Barbie doll, a Polly Pocket Set.. etc..?

Or just look solemn and sad and cry whenever some idiot asks me what I want yet refuse to tell them my predicament..?

Or I just simply, tell them why I want them to donate all the money they're gonna spend on me to charity so they'll hopefully understand and help some school in Cambodia or what?

I mean, I have everything I need. Okay, so maybe sometimes I want a better life and yearn for somethings which some may call post-materialism but yeah, I have all the basic necessities.

And these people like.. don't have all that I've got and I kinda feel quite.. let's say.. guilty..

I dunno, I feel kinda miserable.

Oh, and I'm glad glad glad that nobody in my school's got access to the HFC web. If not, I'll be.. I dunno.. maybe even more upset that lots of people in my class know this..

I don't want the whole world to know. Really. But I don't think everyone on Earth would find this website, accidentally or not.

But yeah, just tell me what you people might do or just.. simply, tell me what to do..

Thanks a lot.

Blue as the blue bottle can be,

Minerva

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5:23 PM

okayyy, so i said i would put up my fanfics and stuff somewhere, and i've created THIS.

http://museofawriter.livejournal.com

visit it for my works, fanfics, songs, crappy stuff, not-so-crappy stuff, everything:P

michelle has graced me by ebing the first one to even SEE the site, much more to be the first to leave a comment. Thank You Professor!

So yes, I HAVE PUT UP THE FIRST 3 CHAPTERS OF MY MARAUDERER FIC.

It is called Bygone Days at Hogwarts or something like that...anyway its like james' diary and events during their school year...i'm still on first year, but yeah:P

IT IS NOT SLASH, SO NO WORRIES THERE!

my point is. just go read it. michelle thinks its good for laughs...so does beverly. so yeah:P

go see it. Today!

GO GO GO! WHAT'RE YOU WAITING FOR?

AND THANK YEW VERY MUCH.

-Mr Ronald Roshni Weasley.

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10:24 AM

Heyys, people:- Hope you kinda enjoyed the last post...

Oh, and those of you here who are interested in the Tom - Ginny relationship, or you don't know what the hell I am talking about, check this out. Kinda disturbing at the end, and makes you think that the world is full of... Whatever, but the lyrics are... Well, you can decide.

Link:-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qDSfJ8ahphs&mode=suggested&search=harry%20potter%20mcgonagall

And there's another one on Draco Malfoy. Anyone here now likes Malfoy cos he's cute? Well, this time round, Draco is solo [except with mere images of other students] and he's motioning to the song "Ice Ice baby". Funny part is, we always manage to catch him strutting on the "Ice Ice Baby" part. Thus, the link:-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50ZBs-cBXxk&mode=suggested&search=harry%20potter%20mcgonagall

Oh, by the way, in case you folks didn't really know, I DID NOT CREATE THESE VIDEOS cos I'm not that great with WMM..

Oh, and sorry for the part one or whatever crap for the Harry Potter Parody... Its great and I'll give you the full link so you people can go enjoy yourselves. Wait like... for... I'm still counting...

AHH... Nevermind.

Just as long as you have 1 hours time to be online, you are able to watch it.

Wait darling... Linklinklink..

Oh gosh, its damn funny. Please don't get thirsty when you watch this cos you're sure as hell gonna spill that over yourself. And listen to the commentary, please do, its wonderful... I'll try not to be a spoiler but please, its difficult. All you have to do is to remember that everything is funny, and almost all contain a pun. Brace yourselves up for some laughs.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LJ0jvrRJ0Z8&search=Harry%20Potter%20Parody

Yay...

Okay, hence commences the END of my post. I do hope you people won't hate me cos your stomach hurts.

Cheese!

Auf Wiedersehen..

Love,
ME

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2:52 PM

Okay people, I seriously apologise cos I still can't upload the MCS video on youtube.

ANYWAYS, I am very glad that I actually found these videos.

Frankly, it is of mere annoyance to me.

After all, it does include McGonagall you know...

However, this caught me laughing like hell.

Reasons:-

You'll know why when you watch it.

At the end of the video, I caught myself thinking like :- WHAT. THE. HELL.

By the way, you'll have to wait for the videos to upload. From 30 minutes to 5 minutes. But trust me, its worth it.

Anyway darlings, here is the link:-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Rf-k6Z_cK8&search=harry%20potter%20mcgonagall

...And read the short statement and sum-up of the video by its darling creator.

Song adds a touch to the graphics and kinda makes sense.

And I just realised that there are people in the world who think DUMB and McGonagall really ought to be together, and Trelawney's not the only one.

Anyway, youtube is a fantastic website.

I think that I seriously would have missed out a lot on life if it hadn't been for the miraculous surface of the Holy website.

Besides, there's another really funny Harry Potter video.

Its DAMN nice, although characters in there are really darn cranky.

Another link:-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uY7OGgjM6LI&mode=related&search=Harry%20Potter%20Parody

And the above is only part one.

Okay, the laughter was kinda annoying, but its okay...

And for you dear Naruto lovers, there is a Harry - Naruto Parody.

Link:-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bEf96eWjZNQ&search=Harry%20Potter%20Parody

And though I think it has TOO much more of Sausuke and Sakura and some other person I don't know the name of, it is quite pleasant to watch.

And this is the X-men cum Harry Parody. Link:-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pMLAqiVV8E8&search=Harry%20Potter%20Parody

Oh my gosh, the X-men & Harry Potter one is so damn cool.

And Ron darling, there's this one video that you might quite like, with you being a little... naughty...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Ztv4VDoIv0&search=Harry%20Potter%20Parody

And I'll leave the rest to you folks. Have fun exploring youtube!

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2:53 PM

Heyy! Guys! I haven't posted for a long long time. And I'm feeling rather guilty over that. Anyway.

Random: Tomorrow! 5th June! I cannot wait for it to come.

How are you guys doing? I_I Sorry. I know I sound rather retarded. Seriously, I miss the old HFC. The way we laughed at each other's jokes at the green building on the hill.

I don't know what to say. So. BYE! GOOD LUCK!

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9:12 PM

Heya! I've written part two of Emotion, which is the draco/harry thing i wrote a while ago and michelle put up...

here goes.

BEWARE
DRACO/HARRY IS SLASH. WHICH IS EVIDENTLY GUY LIKING GUY. SO IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT, I'M NOT FORCING YOU TO READ IT. this has a drunk draco. he doesn't know what he's saying. but he's saying it. and yes, it may be a bit *coughcough* suggestive, but i tried to keep it down to PG-13.

AND ERR.... YOU MAY THINK I AM SOME FREAK WHOSE MIND IS HORRIDLY DIRTY. and i seriously have second thoughts to this...BUT TREAT IT AS A PIECE OF WRITING. please. i kind of feel i dunno...weird.:P
so yes, if you want to read it, go ahead, thanks, BUT, if you don't, i'm cool with that.:P

hope y'all having great hols. i just went to the library. and am reading BARRY TROTTER. don't know what i'm doing reading that, but yeah. i am. i suck:P

happy hols and finish your homework asap to enjoy the rest of your hols

don't know what else to say...

OHOH.

yian in usa! congrats on your performance! i wanted to watch actually, but sorry i was busy. i screwed up my dance anyway:)

okay shall leave.

HERE IT IS!

Emotion Part Two: Anger

“GET THE BLOODY HELL OUT OF MY SIGHT NOW!”

“FINE I WILL!”

The door slams loudly.

Draco stares at the door momentarily. He doesn’t know what to do. He’s seething with rage and at the same time, his mind tells him to run out and call him back. He continues to stare at the door, as if it will give him an answer, a reason to do the next thing he does.

Breathing deeply, Draco regains his usual composure and sits down on his bed. He is thoroughly annoyed with Harry, as Harry is with him. It is not the first time they have fought like this. It isn’t the vulgarities that annoy him. It is the fact that he would do something like this just to break Draco into a million pieces. Harry knows that he can crush Draco like a piece of paper. Draco wonders what to do. He was the first to apologise the last time. This time, it was going to be Harry. Definitely.

He picks up the nearest book and concentrates on it. It doesn’t work. He throws the book down and looks out his dorm’s window. Someone is flying. The sky is grey and rain is falling in torrents. Yet still, someone is flying. Draco knows of only one person who could fly like that in this kind of weather. Standing up, Draco decides to take a walk. He leaves the room to get somewhere else. He doesn’t need someone like Harry to rule his mind.

*

Harry flies towards the clouds. Rain is battering him from every direction. Pelting him, you could even venture to say. But it does not hurt. Nothing hurts as much as Draco. Draco and his words. Harry shakes his head and does a loop, turning back towards the pitch.

Harry loves flying. He knows no one will affect him in any way up here. The weather is bad, an ever better reason to be alone. People will call him a lunatic, but Harry knows what he wants- and that is just peace and quiet for a while.

Once his instantaneous rage is vented, Harry’s mind begins to think. Draco acts as if he rules the world. Draco is the biggest git Harry has ever known. Harry was right to have not accepted his friendship in his first year. Harry was right to have used every chance he had against him. Draco is a walking disaster to Harry and he cannot deny that. Harry’s blood boils at the thought of Draco at that moment.

But there is another side of Draco. The side which makes Harry’s knees go weak and make his heart beat faster than a snitch. There are so many moments that they have shared and which could be considered good memories. Harry knows this and he knows that if he sees Draco he will not be able to control himself. He will not be able to stay angry at Draco if he comes looking for him. Eventually Harry knows he will give in. Harry always gives in, even though he fights till the very end.

*

Draco passes by the Quidditch Pitch on his way to Hogsmeade. He sees Harry flying and knows he won’t look at him. That is Harry. Stubborn as a mule.

Harry catches the slightest glimpse of Draco on the pitch walking towards Hogsmeade. Dragging his eyes off Draco, he flies towards the sky, avoiding a certain area which he cannot control-his mind.

*
Draco walks into the Hog’s Head. Ruffling his wet hair slightly, he walks to an end of the room. He does not want to be noticed and Malfoys always get noticed. Draco sits down, keeping his head bowed and his voice low. “Your strongest brew of brandy.” Draco says. “Please.” he adds, as an afterthought. Draco needs the alcohol in him. He wants to just forget everything. He wants to be alone, and he will get what he wants. The bartender hands Draco his drink and leaves him alone. Draco drinks a sip and feels its strength. It is strong, powerful and Draco can feel it pulsate through him. Closing his eyes, he sees fuzzy lights in the darkness. Someone taps on his shoulder.

It is a scantily clad bar top dancer. Draco isn’t in the mood. He gets up and moves to another table. He drinks up and slowly the brandy begins to get to him. Eventually he gets up and barely makes it back to Hogwarts. He gets to the Quidditch Pitch and then realises he is going to throw up. Feeling completely light headed and not the least bit sober, he is running aimlessly, trying to find the locker room.

He doesn’t manage to get there in time. He keels over onto the grass and with a terrible lurch of his stomach, throws up on the very spot. Draco rolls over with a groan and lies on his back, gazing up at the sky. He blinks, and in a wave of tiredness, closes his eyes and falls asleep to the soft rustling of the leaves on the trees and a lone owl hooting.

*
Harry walks back to his dorm, after taking a shower in the locker rooms. He feels satisfied, as he has managed to forget Draco and his problems. It is time spent well. Harry goes back to his dorm and does some homework. Seamus is helping him- with a few comments of his own. “If only we could just create our own spells and get away with it.” “Snape is a sod. A sodding piece of rotting toenail.” Harry amuses himself and laughs along. After a while, though, Seamus leaves, for a night with Parvati and Harry is left alone. Satisfying his hunger with some pumpkin juice, he continues alone and then Neville comes in. Harry is looking out the window when he walks in.

“He’s out there, completely drunk.”

Harry looks up at Neville questioningly.

“You know who.”

Harry continues to look at Neville for another moment and then leaves the room once he realises what Neville means.

*

Harry walks out to the Quidditch Pitch. The air is crisp and the sky is clear. He walks on and finds Draco asleep on the grass. The air reeks of alcohol. Harry shakes his head and sits down beside him. Draco is restless in his sleep. Harry cannot help but feel guilty. He watched his friend sleep. As he himself is dozing off, Harry hears Draco mutter “Harry!” faintly. Harry wakes up and looks at Draco, still having a fitful sleep. Harry does the first thing that he feels like doing. He holds Draco’s hand. “It’s okay…” he mumbles softly. Draco opens his eyes with a start.

“Harry?”

Harry looks at Draco. Draco pulls his hand out from Harry’s and sits up. The sudden action makes Draco want to throw up again. Either that, or it’s the sight of Harry. Draco hopes it is the first option. The two of them look at each other. Draco is a mess, reeks, and looks prepared to throw Harry into the forest. Harry, on the other hand, is clean and smells of pumpkin juice and well, is being himself. Harry opens his mouth to say something but Draco stops him.

“Don’t. Say. Anything.”
Draco stands up, turns around and begins to walk off.

Harry chuckles to himself. ”Wrong direction,” he says out loud, without looking at Draco. Draco turns around and continues walking, cursing at Harry. Harry stands up and walks to Hogwarts with Draco. On the way there, he loosens his tie a little. It is beginning to get warmer. Draco trips over something and literally falls onto Harry, knocking off his glasses. Harry decides its time for some payback.

“Hello Draco,” he says in a low,rough voice, looking at Draco in the eye. There is a glimmer in Draco’s eyes for a few moments as he stares into Harry’s eyes with such lust but then breaks eye contact and tries to get up but his body feels too heavy. He makes an odd groan. Harry playfully shushes him with a finger to Draco’s lips. Draco looks back at Harry and feels a chill run down his spine. This is the Harry Draco wants to know. This is the Harry Draco wants to be with forever. This is Harry.

Draco brings his lips down onto Harry’s. Harry is distracted by a soft sound of footsteps nearby but is completely thrown off by Draco. Harry returns the favour to Draco and Draco tries to unbutton Harry’s shirt. Harry stops him with a hand. It is instinctive. Not in the Quidditch Pitch. No way. “You smell of pumpkin juice,” Draco says, his voice slurred.” So sweet, so sodding sweet.” He licks Harry’s neck slowly. Harry feels like his head will explode. Nudging away slowly, Harry shrugs Draco off and stands up and clears his throat. Draco looks at him suggestively.

“Don’t do that,” Harry mutters weakly. How could he be so horrible to Draco and stay angry at him? Draco glares at Harry for a minute and begins to walk away. Harry could feel Draco radiate hate from every pore in his body. Every pore in his very hot body. Harry couldn’t do this to him. Or himself.

Harry follows Draco and once he has caught up with him, he whispers into Draco’s ear in a soft, strong and sexy voice, “I’m so sorry,”

-roshni.

PPS: hope you don't hate me. really. i just happen to have read too many draco/harry fics. and remus/sirius. and i am terribly corrupted:P i admit it that i tend to be a little...naughty?

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10:44 AM

Hello people:-

I am here to post. Once again.

And I have GOOD NEWS as well as BAD NEWS.

Anyway, I will be going off on a journey on Thursday [01/06/06] till Wednesday [07/06/06]. So... Bad news is:- I will not be posting during those days.

Good news is:- I will try to get Sylvia to post something, preferably NOT about boys on Tuesday[06/06/06].

Anyway, did you people like my story the last time? I do hope so. It was a writing compeitition between ME [whose representative name was Michelle] and my friend [whose representative name is Michellina].

I seriously don't know what to post.

But anyway, I will, because I won't be posting for such a long time. So I decided to modify a really nice song I heard, Boy from Ipanema, to suit my needs. Once again, using my representative name...

Check it out.

Michelle lyrics

Tall and slim and young and lovely

Michelle from Ipanema goes walking.

And when she passes, each one she passes goes - ah

When she walks, she's like a samba

That swings so cool and sways so gentle

That when she passes, each one she passes goes - ooh

(Ooh) But I watch her so sadly

How can I tell her I love her

Yes I would give my heart gladly

But each day, when she walks to the sea

She looks straight ahead, not at me

Tall, (and) slim, (and) young, (and) lovely

Michelle from Ipanema goes walking

And when she passes, I smile - but she doesn't see (doesn't see)

(She just doesn't see, she never sees me,...)

Yay, I rock forever.

Time to watch Teen Titans.

Auf Wiedersehen.

Love,
ME

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